My Butterfly.... Tessa

I had a really neat experience this past Saturday. It was one of those moments that was short and simple, yet had a long lasting impact on me. First and foremost.. I have struggled with my faith lately. I have been through a lot of pain lately... that I think just wore me out.. took away color, and light in me. It isn't all gone.. there are shimmers.. and it is the shimmer that felt this moment and held on to it. My sister came into my room as I was sleeping.. and wanted me to feel her pregnant belly.. to see if I could feel Tessa moving and kicking there. First, it touched me that I had that opportunity... and second I remembered at that moment the beauty of life... I thought about my niece Tessa.. as I touched my sister's belly. :>) Inside she is scrunched up, gooey, wrinkly, and it's dark. But, soon she will be in the light, beautiful, smooth, warm....light. I thought of a butterfly and how it starts out the same way... from something scrunched up and ugly, a catapillar..... to a beautiful butterfly. At that moment, because of my sister and little Tessa.. I remembered that ugliness and pain... bring beauty.... it just takes some time...I forgot this. Thanks Stace and my little Tessa for reminding me. I am so excited for Tessa to come.... I know my little butterfly has many more things to teach me and remind me about.. until then..

"Observe
The faith of a caterpillar
That never questions "why".
Behold
What a homely worm
Becomes a butterfly."
~~Mildred N. Hoyer

Classic Mikey

I just couldn't pass this up. This is "Classic Mikey".. hating pictures, so making the dorky faces. I seriously think this is one of his best.. Those of you that know him will laugh your ass off like I did. Those of you that don't will think "What the...?", and then laugh your ass off. Either way it is postworthy for a laugh. :>) It is also his birfday today.. Happy Birthday My Mikey !!

Super Senior Visits

One of my favorite things about being a teacher is when graduated seniors come back and see me. I love to find out what they are doing and see them all growed up... it is a plus in my career :>)

This is Brittster... when she first came to Dixie last year it was hard not to judge her by her cover... and boy did I misjudge. :>) She is a strong soul with many talents. My favorites are her ability to draw and her quirky sense of humor.. it was good to see her.

This is Erin... she is my baby girl. I wub her immensely and am grateful to have her in my life. She is one of my Super Seniors that comes to see me often.. thank goodness. :>) K... could I be any fatter?

This be Brodester....He is going to Cali soon to do his bike racing stuff. Good kid... good memories...


E.O. how I miss ya.. So glad when he stops in. He is doing so good. Making lots of mula and spending it on Michael Jordan crap... Love him.

Can't Miss This Tube Time

Fall TV is here... a bunch of brand new shows.. and returning good ones... Mr. Tivo gets a little overloaded this time of year as he tries to tape the new ones and old ones for me. :>) So, sometimes I have to be picky for him... so these are three that I just love right now... and that I can't miss. Um.. does it mean anything that all three have yummy guys on them....

Love this one.. it is mystery meets weird medical phenomenon... and it has Josh Jackson.. I like his aura :>)



Okay so let me begin by saying that I am usually not an FX fan... their shows are at times a little too hard core for me... but... love this new one. It touches on the lives of a biker community and I love the lead character Jax. He is a bad boy with a conscience... gotta love it and him!!



Last but not least.. Supernatural. I used to not be able to watch this one. Scared me too much... but I have always been drawn to the dark, supernatural, vampire stuff... and this dishes it out hardcore. But, I love the relationship between the brothers.. and how good always prevails in the end.... and they are hotties !!!:>)

Uno

Today was Nellybuns first birthday. She is freakin adorable. She had her own cake, lots of presents, and lots of friends and family there to wish her well. Happy Birthday Nellybuns !!

Fall Thoughts

Love fall... my friend Krischelle did an awesome post about it.. and she got me thinking.. why do I love fall? Honestly.. I think because it brings about "change". Change to many of us is a dirty word.. it scares us.. gets us out of our comfort zones. Trust me.. I used to be one of these people.. :>) But, I find the older I get, and the more I go through.. that change brings about beauty.. strength... color. Nothing symbolizes this more during the fall.... then the changing leaves... and so this is why I love fall.. For change, beauty, strength... for the leaves that symbolize what we can become....

So What's With the Flute Player?

Somehow.. somewhere I got into southwest design. I love it.. and anyone that has been in my house can attest to this. Well.. on this road of love.. I was introduced to Kokopelli... and I was drawn to him. So, I began to wonder why I liked him ... and did a little research.. especially when someone told me he was the fertility god.This is what I found... and to my relief he isn't known only as a fertility god.. but much more.. and I feel there are other reasons why I was drawn to him.. Whew :>)

"Known as a fertility god, prankster, healer and story teller, Kokopelli has been a source of wonder throughout the country for centuries. Kokopelli embodies the true American Southwest, and dates back over 3,000 years ago, when the first petroglyphs were carved. Although his true origins are unknown, this traveling, flute-playing Casanova is a sacred figure to many Southwestern Native Americans. Carvings of this hunch-backed flute-playing figure have been found painted and carved into rock walls and boulders throughout the Southwest.

There are many myths of the famous Kokopelli. One of which is that he traveled from village to village bringing the changing of winter to spring; melting the snow and bringing about rain for a successful harvest. It is also said that the hunch on his back depicted the sacks of seeds and songs he carried. Legend also has it that the flute playing also symbolized the transition of winter to spring. Kokopelli’s flute is said to be heard in the spring’s breeze, while bringing warmth. It is also said that he was the source of human conception. Legend has it, everyone in the village would sing and dance throughout the night when they heard Kokopelli play his flute. The next morning, every maiden in the village would be with child.

Whatever the true meaning of Kokopelli is, he has been a source of music making and dancing, and spreading joy to those around him. Even today, Kokopelli, with his hunchback and flute, is always welcome in our homes."

Homecoming Highlights

Homecoming week this week... Here are some of my favorite highlights in no particular order....
-Booing Christensen's bad reffing at the Powder Puff Game.. love teasing him..
-Coach Robinson doing the salsa dance during parent teacher conferences
-Taking tickets with Jame and Margareta
-Bean coming home to crown the new king
-Winning the game and singing the school song with the football team
-Anna Banana being on royalty
-Seeing old students and friends at the game
-Decorating La's room and yard for Mikey
-Seeing how spirited our kids are... especially with their hairdos :>)
-Thinking about Chelsea at the beginning of the game.. her spirit was there.. you coulda heard a pin drop
-Armando crowned king... he is a good kid


Not a day goes by.. that I realize how lucky I am to do what I do at Dixie... Go Big Blue :>)

Saturday Splashin Around

Make a Smilebox scrapbook

Stupid Tags

Thanks Tam... :>)
50 ODD Things about you! If you opened this, FILL IT OUT! Learn 50 things about your friends, and let them learn 50 things about you!
1) Do you like blue cheese? YEP... Have you seen my butt??
2) Have you ever smoked crack? Nope... cloves... not crack
3) Do you own a gun? Water gun.. does that count?
4) What flavor do you add to your drink at Sonic? Cherry Lime Rickeys are da bomb
5) Do you get nervous before doctors appointments? Yah... hate gyno's and dentists
6) What do you think of hot dogs? Not bad.. love Costco ones
7) Favorite Christmas song? Jingle Bell Rock
8) What do you prefer to drink in the morning? Diet Pepsi :>)
9) Can you do push ups? Um... like one
11) What's your favorite piece of jewelry? My big bangle bracelets
12) Favorite hobby? Decorating
13) Ever been in a car wreck? Yep
14) Do you like thunderstorms? Love them.. like Tammi
15) What's one trait that you hate about yourself? My butt
16) Middle name? Don't have one
17) Name 3 thoughts at this exact moment? 1- I am soo sick my head is gonna explode. 2- Gotta love parent teacher conferences. 3- Need to call Andal my Love Handle
18) Name 3 things you bought today? Nothing... weird cause I usually do
19) Name 3 drinks you regularly drink? Diet Pepsi, Water, Apple Juice
20) Current worry? Money.. I spend too much
21) Current hate right now? My fatness.. it is a constant hate... yet I do nothing about it.
22) How did you bring in the New Year? Sleeping.. I am old
23) Where would you like to go back to? HAWAII
24) Name three people who will complete this? Andal, Stace, Addie... Answer up girls
26) Do you own slippers? Yep
27) What shirt are you wearing? Dixie Football... always :>)
28) Do you like sleeping on satin sheets? Um no weird...
29) Can you whistle? No
30) Favorite color? Red and black
31) Would you be a pirate? Yes.. would love to kick some butt
32) What songs do you sing in the shower? Lol... She's a brick house... I don't know I am weird.
33) Favorite girl's name? Cheyenne
34) Favorite boy's name? Stone
35) Whats in your pocket? Not a darn thing
36) Last thing that made you laugh? Talking about 80's movies with Metzger and Keate... Bill and Ted's Excellent Adventure.. It's a classic
37) Best bed sheets as a child? Um... Strawberry Shortcake.. all the way
38) Worst injury you've ever had? Kidney Stones... they are the worst !!
40) Favorite flavor potato chips? Dill Pickle... me too Tammi :>)
41) Who is your loudest friend? Andal my Love Handle.. she is almost as loud as me...
42) How many dogs do you have? 3 Zoe, Coconut, Nina
43) Does someone have a crush on you? Yah.. Tom Brady or Michael Phelps
45) What is your favorite book? Currently the whole Twilight series.. Me toooooo !!
46) What is your favorite candy? Dove Chocolate and Caramel
47) Favorite Sports Team? Patriots
48) What song do you want played at your funeral? Say (John Mayer)... When I get to where I'm Going (Brad Paisley)
49) What were you doing at midnight last night? Sleeping
50) First thing you thought about when you woke up? Should I shower today??

Mini Fore

Had an awesome Saturday with my nephews... went miniature golfin' and had a blast. Cooper was the best.. it was amazing how many times he got a "hole in one"... he would walk his golf ball to the hole and triumphantly place the ball in every time. Of course the last hole... ticked him off when his ball got sucked in... he wasn't to happy about that one... :>)

Heaven

This pic is what I call heaven... driving with my nephews and Coop puts his little hand on me knee... life doesn't get much better than that...

Sleeping 101

Oh... Dixie High... The only high school where Sleeping 101 is offered... Here is Maxi Pad taking a snooze in the back of his truck.... with mattress, five xtra outfits just in case, water bottles, and other necessities of life...



And here we have a clan of sleepers... what a good education they are receiving... :>) But seriously... Dixie is home... not only to me.. but to most everyone that has the opportunity to be a part of it !!! So it is easy to chill and feel comfortable here.

Hurry Up Already

K... want Grey's to start... we got jipped last year cause of the writer's strike... but I am looking forward to this year... so hurry up already !!!

Driver's Ed. TV Star

So, I am sitting at my desk at work today... and in walks a girl the size of one of my legs. :>) She asks if I want to be interviewed about raising the legal age to drive... Um, okay dokay...It's just the local news channel here in St. George.... but still pretty cool. Click on the link to watch the TV star do her work... :>)

http://www.kcsg.com/news/local/28222264.html?video=YHI&t=a

Just Say It

This is by far one of my favorite songs. John Mayer talks about saying what is in our heart. I love how he says that it is not easy at times, but at times necessary to regain faith, and get rid of doubt. Sometimes we have to say things we don't want to, or say what we need to instead of what we want to... to win love and light in the end. Deep stuff.. that I try to live by....


Take all of your wasted honor
Every little past frustration
Take all of your so-called problems,
Better put ‘em in quotations

Say what you need to say [x8]

Walking like a one man army
Fighting with the shadows in your head
Living out the same old moment
Knowing you’d be better off instead,
If you could only . . .

Say what you need to say [x8]

Have no fear for giving in
Have no fear for giving over
You’d better know that in the end
Its better to say too much
Then never say what you need to say again

Even if your hands are shaking
And your faith is broken
Even as the eyes are closing
Do it with a heart wide open

Say what you need to say [x24]

Soon !!

Sucks Big Patriot Toes !!

My baby is hurt.. and out for the rest of the season. Just when I was getting into liking to watch football on television.... my Tom is down and out... so all I got to say is it sucks big patriot toes !!!

Shopping, Purple Shoes, and Kimosabe

Went shopping with Bean this last weekend.. had a blast. First, I gave him Kimosabe... now Kimo used to sit on my table in my entry way.. kinda watched over all that entered.. so I gave him to Bean to watch over him at school. Bean decided to bring him shopping with us. I got in the car and this was what I found... Laughed my fat ass off!!


Then me, Bean, and Kimosabe went shopping. I wanted to get something for him for college... mostly pants. Bean informed me that he had stashed some sweet pants at the DI up in Cedar. Told me he had hid them good... :>) Only Bean would hide pants at the DI.. So I got him some shoes... Of course they couldn't just be the normal kind... had to be a little on the colorful side. :>)



He even found socks to match !! Ha..... good shopping day.. good moments.

DARK KNIGHT REVIEW

Went and finally saw the batman last weekend with Stace, Pops, and Bean.... WOW !! I was curious cause it has made like 500 kajillion dollars. So, I thought I should scope it out before it left... and WOW !! Never thought batman could be sooo deep.. but it was. I love movies for entertainment value of course... but I also like to learn something from them... and I learned a lot from this one.... like the two sides of human nature and at times the dark side of humans comes from unexpected sources... I loved the ferry scene in the movie.. it really delves into humanity.. and the good and evil choices we make under pressure. Loved it !! Heath was unreal.. so sad he is dead.. But all in all... thumbs up for me!

HAPPY LABOR DAY !!!

So tomorrow... or I guess I should say.... today is Labor Day, to celebrate I decided to labor/ride Charlie's scooter... in the dark... at midnight... so no one can see me crash... :>) I am not a very coordinated one. Well, I didn't crash, but I did tip the scooter over and pressed the gas as I did... Good Hell !! Sorry Charlie... I am trying to talk dad into getting me a pink one.. then I can get a pink helmet and bedazzle it. :>) But, I will have to practice some more.... cause I was born to ride baby.....NOT